Thursday, November 30, 2017

Movie: Ki & Ka

First of all Im gonna share the link to the trailer:


It is a Hindi movie and I saw the trailer by accident on the television and I was just talking about this concept with a friend or two of mine and I said to my woa what a coincident and so of course I want to watch this.  I saw the ad yesterday and I watched it today.  The last Hindi movie I watched was Dangal which I love so so much!  I tried to convince my family to watch it but I still need to find a good time to finally show them it.  I tried showing to my students but they weren't interested and not going to give it at least a try at all, so I gave up on them.  Pity them.  While the latest new movie was the Justice League which I don't have much response to it just that I've learned so much about the ever existing Superman and Wonder Woman, geez and I can be so bad at it so forgive me.  I love Ezra in his Flash suit and I don't know much about The Flash but I think Ezra is The Flash.   He looks like he's being himself or rather a bit of himself in that movie.


Anyway,

It was a 2016 movie so I was late and I haven't checked for the reviews or the issues that follow this movie.  I believe that this movie will cause some interesting responses from many people or activists idk.  

The movie has wonderful script and I don't know much about the casts but they're okay, I like the pairing, the mom and the dad; the typical successful working man with a son.  The background stories of the couple and how they come about being who they are now.  The beginning (not the very beginning, maybe the part in the plane) of the movie and the ending (not the very ending, the plane scenes) scenes have got to be my favorite <insert noun here> it has that something that makes me say this is a well plotted story, a something that is different from others, it'd make a good poem if it is a poem (if you know how I like my poem), the pattern would be the one that catch me instantly, something unexpected I guess... Not planning to exaggerate but this is what I feel, and I might be comparing it with the not so many movies I've watched out there.   
But English Literature classes got me this way and I LOVE it.

okay, the one of the issues in this movie would be the gender equality (here's the thing about me, I am not a feminist (I might be missing out what they fight for but I know the gist) but I want justice and not equality and also I want society not to judge me based on my gender.   That I have the expectations that I have to meet just because I am what I was born as.
Like "u x leh msk ka?" "eh u pmpuan so ape u msk the best?" "u pmpuan misti taw ni"
***
*Me in shower thinking: Here ahh, I may not know what the dishes' name you mentioned and that I should have cooked them ,,i may not know BUT the thing is I cook, I go to kitchen and I help and I cook and that is okay for me.  it might be not as good as other girls or that boys shouldnt be better than me.... just if anything u shud be concerned is that if grown adults out there who knows no shit about cooking something.  THAT is the issue,, not me who seems cant cook when I shudnt be bcuz im a girl. 
This movie points out the issues and also the voices, the other voices that might or already expected from the society, from many kinds of people, here and there and also I think they are brave to being this out and even said "Indian's tradition".
So this man wants to be like his mom in which is a housewife and he portrays that as an artist.  Housewife is an artist and I feel bad for not ever think it that way, and I have to agree, it's a huge deal (it's not that I'm saying that housewife is nothing nooooo), we can see how Kabir (the man in the movie) got reeled up when Kia (the girl in the movie) said "well, ur dad moves forward and it is important so your mom can sit and do nothing" and yeah that is when viewed from Kabir's eyes is so offensive.  The thing about housewives, homemakers,, society: men and women, old and young,, we belittle them since ever.  Girls themselves putting down other girls who are a stay at home mom or housewives.

And for me Kabir doesnt do this to proof a point or something, he just has dreams and it happens that he doesnt like office hassles or taking over his dad's company and stuffs, (he's a mama's boy) and his dad hate the idea and only after like 3 or 4 years he finally visited his daughter in law. < I love this scene XD.  

Kia also said she isn't try to proof anything by becoming a successful businesswoman; just that I do what I can do best, she said (different from the actual dialogue but the point is the same)


The scene in the hospital

by Kia

Kia's mom reply


CLICK TO VIEW


This is the letter by
Jaya Badhuri Bachan
(ya she plays herself in the movie) to Kia:

Listening: Hard Out Here by Lily Allen

I forgot what I need to say, I thought there's more but got distracted by the new track I just found "it's hard out here for a bitch" and the editing of the font of the script excerpt.  and also I really want to know how they would handle children (ive seen real life tho), tho Kia doesnt want children.
And through Kia we can see women's emotional break downs, and ya hate to break it but ya that's women, Kia is seen to be outcasting his husband and Kabir was seen sad but he got through and when Kabir has the attention she was jealous.  GENERALLY: we are too insecure, we judge too quick,,    BUT the levels of them,,they differ from one woman to another woman and that what makes me special  (hehe nah, I probably have OCD and anxiety and no this is not a sex/gender probs)

and also I have no problems if guys want to be house husbands or stay at home dads, this is not even a new thing, some already done it and guhhh do what you want as long that makes you happy and it's not salah in syariah.

Kia is different from many women out there just like the way the letter says and at the same time she too portrays the emotional bringing of a woman.  As for Kabir, he is too a different man, in fact in my eyes his kind is so rare out there (at least in my place, the country im in).  But together they make a good team and a CUTE couple.  I ship this kind of relationships.

and also I still want men to do the fish catching in the swamp XD, the other day we had this camp for 3 days 2 nights and they asked us to jump in the swamp to catch haruan,, hahaha I guess I have no knowledge of catching this venomish fish and I feel geli2 hahahah so I went up just in time when they asked the boys to come down and do the work, I guess Im too shy to show myself too erghhhh,, I can catch some fish if I want to duhhh (hahhha) and since we had so many tenaga kerja so why not let them do it, they wanted and readily to do it.

Thursday, August 31, 2017

Music: Tennis

I found another new muse! Alhamdulillah!  Thanks to my sister for introducing this duo? They're totally a talented art maker.  I was busy listening to some other songs for inspiration (I'm lacking of it these days)  And I am listening to the whole latest album by this duo, I believe that they make these tracks themselves, I meant the writing.

When she suggested me to type 'Modern Woman Tennis' I expected a man and a kinda song like Mac DeMarco's and I was wrong for the first part.  The music video is like an old era, like 70s or 80s, a lady which I learned as the singer and she wears this big curly hair and the lights all over her while she's turning and you know the mvs back then.

I am as a time traveler enthusiast find this very mesmerizing, they really are different, the songs they make are wonderful, hauntingly enchanting.  I looked up and learned that they made music since 2011 with similar cover album concept.

taken from Google

TENNIS!

So while listening to this, my sister told me all the details she know and I love Tennis instantly.  My sister even said that all of their songs are good, tho I feel a little skeptical about that, I don't complain.  I love the first song so why not the second one; In the Morning I'll be Better and I love this one too.  Then I decided to listen to the whole album; Yours Conditionally and while looking for it, I was listening to Matrimony and again I love this too.  For this one I actually looked up the lyric and the final part of it saying about she became a wife and so I figure that this album is dedicated to her husband; the cover album, the name of the album (Yours Conditionally, 2017) and in which is not one of the songs and I find it clever that it is not 'Unconditionally' but Conditionally.

I told this to my sister:
"Look at the title it's 'Yours Conditionally' like normally people
say I love you unconditionally but this, I am yours but with conditions."
I personally feel that this is genius.
The whole concept of realism and the real world,
the becoming of great and real ladies, come to me.
BOOM
(I don't know how to describe it, omg) and I guess it

I can't even describe these are the kind of music I'd listen to.  The emotions expressed and the way they were conveyed just felt right and special to me, and I want to believe that people who listen to this kind of music are the same as me, in some little ways (Suddenly I remember my sister who is quite different from me, the opposite but we listen to similar genre of musics hahaa).  The music is just like hints of musical instruments, limit to only certain sounds.

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Wednesday, August 30, 2017

Music: Reviews on Instagram




I made a few posts on Instagram on several songs that touched me good, or really do something to me or just simply they give off good beat *cough*.  I use Picmotion app for the clips and love it ever since.  I should've made something longer eh.  When I looked back at this tag of mine, I don't really post this kinds of post a lot and I feel quite upset about it.  And I still surprised I did't include Lily Allen's F*** You track.  Did I?



A screenshot

Thursday, August 17, 2017

Album: Cry Baby




It all started out with me listening to Halsey's Colors, I've listened to this long time ago but then I decided to just go back and listen to it again after so many years (is it really that long?)
Then I saw comments BUT honestly I can't remember how I found Melanie.  But the comment section This is so bad and I feel like a bad fan I can't even say I am one.  But it happened earlier this year and I found her and I learned about her style of music and how she made them, she plays guitar, she writes poem and that basically leads her to writing songs and lyric and that I think is an awesome thing ever and she's cute and her sense of fashion is cute yet creepy but I love it anyway.  It even made me wanted to try that kind of hairstyles and colors, I wanted to dye my hair with two different colors and wear a nose ring.  OMG I really do want to wear my make up like her (just that I don't really wear make up)


Tracklist

Tracklist

1. Cry Baby
2. Dollhouse
3. Sippy Cup
4. Carousel
5. Alphabet Boy
6. Soap
7. Training Wheels
8. Pity Party
9. Tag, You're It
10. Milk and Cookies
11. Pacify Her
12. Mrs. Potato Head
13. Mad Hatter

Deluxe Edition Tracklist
14. Play Date
15. Teddy Bear
16. Cake


I super glad that I found her and her very first debut album called Cry Baby.  It even comes with a booklet telling stories about a character named Cry Baby and it is written in poems and the stories are told in songs and the poems are written based on the track list and there's illustration in which Melanie would love to have that kind of drawings drawn to her body.  Honestly, I'm not a fan of vintage dolls, western dolls, not sure how the dolls look like in my place many many years ago but the way she involved the dolls in her art piece is just weirdly pleasant looking and I don't mind at the sight of the dolls.  They're creepy.

Out of the tracks, I first listened to Pity Party or was it Pacify Her?  I watched the MV first before listening to the whole album.  I like Pity Party especially the part where she loses her mind and says

"I'm laughing, I'm crying, I feel like I'm dying"

This part pretty much explains my emotion back then, and I guess that is why I love this song.  Again it was about my workplace issue and my own inner conflict.
The MV explains the song well, and so is her other MVs.  I like MVs that really have the relation to the title of the songs or the whole story of the songs.  It just gives me the impression of the music being high quality and effective.
Her messages are coming for me.  She really reaches out and we understand her and her stories.  I watched her lives, interviews and The Voice she was in and I fell in love with her version of La Roux Bulletproof.  I DO LOVE IT A LOT.  It is just so manja and sexy.  Never would I have thought that that song could be so sexy.

I love the whole album despite I have my favorite.  I can say that her first album is perfect.  She has a lot work to do for the second just to top her own record of the first album.  It is well organized.  Her ideas and concept can be seen through the whole album.  She introduces a character, Cry Baby which I believe it is her own self and other minor characters like the boyfriends, her family members or at least her other self's family.  The stories go on from one song to another and also a few side stories like the Mrs. Potato.  She conveys her ideas and opinions through tracks like that but it does not go too far from her main concept.

I like the lyrics of course and how they are poetic and just easy to sing along and I have fun figuring out her songs both by the comments and my own interpretation.  She is indeed an artist.  She makes art and I am so glad I found her and I wish she makes more and more good art in the future.  I hope I can own her physical album and if she ever writes books I want them all and woa PLEASE WRITE SOME!  This may sound silly but because of her I once had the urge to make songs too.  But I don't even play musical instrument so I'm gonna just leave that side of me here.  It's funny right how we can be influenced, how I can be influenced like this.  
I like the stories behind every tracks of hers.  For instance, Training Wheels is about the girl having the intention of stepping to another level of relationship and the MV portrays that in a child's play situation: she wants the boy to take off the training wheels of the bike.
It's genius. 

Soap is about how you wish you didn't say some words (You know words that make you seemed stupid and feel stupid and make you feel regretted) and you wish you can wash your mouth for saying it.

"Why do I always spill"

And yes, I don't need to talk about her vocal, I like it and I like it a lot, husky and raspy and she can sing.  Her stage attitude is the one I like too, like how Gerard Way and Katy Perry would on stage.  I really am bad at describing huh hahhah

here is a few bits on her vocal not arranged by me obviously


She has cute dance style too hahhah!
But ya you should check out her Pacify Her video
They call it noodle dance ahhaha LOVE IT
of course I love everything about her right??

She did a lot of covers too
CHECK THEM OUT



Look at that tooth gap, super cute



My favorite songs are Play Date, Pacify Her, Alphabet Boy (I love how she plays with words here)

She has a lot of MVs from this album and I love it when singers made a lot of MVs out of their tracks because I want to see more of them in action together with the songs.

Pacify Her

Cry Baby

Dollhouse

Mrs. Potato Head


Alphabet Boy

Carousel


Sippy Cup


A LOT RIGHT?

The best part of making of these videos is that she directs them herself.

She even has perfume commercial.  Cute one!




OMG THIS IS BASICALLY ABOUT MELANIE AND NOT HER ALBUM
HAHHA

P/s: She inspires me up to the moon, I wish I can do something like her.

Journal: Upon Adulthood


English translation of this song

MELTED by AKMU

The blue ocean that the red sun used to wash its face turns black
The white sky that had clouds and rain and the wind turns gray
I leave the darkness that finds my heart
Even the cold shadow that covers the night starts to harden

If the ice melts, a warmer song would have come out
But why is the ice so cold? Why is it so cold?
Why are they so cold
Why are they so cold

The blue ocean that the red sun used to wash its face
I look at the past warmth that is deeply buried (too late get it out)
I wish the cold in the world of adults would be gone too
I wish the frozen love will melt away now

I leave the darkness that finds my heart
Even the cold shadow that covers the night starts to harden

If the ice melts, a warmer song would have come out
But why is the ice so cold? Why is it so cold?

If the ice melts, a warmer song would have come out
But why is the ice so cold? Why is it so cold?
Why are they so cold
Why are they so cold


Such a beautiful song.  Written with talent and bad experience.  The symbols used are just so good.  So poetic and I like the line if the ice melts, a warmer song would have come out.  
It means a lot.
Guys, this is why I love poetry.  and this pretty much explains why I am such a sucker for some songs similar to this and I'm a crybaby you assholes and why I am AKMU's fan.  
I'm such a late bloomer, I only managed to figure myself about this passion of mine quite late and I'm not sure what to feel. 

So when I was looking for more videos for the previous entry, I browsed for AKMU, because they made beautiful songs and MVs and I remembered watching this one when they debuted and I like the MV and I like the boy (he's cute) and also I can't really remember what I thought of this MV the first time I saw it but I know I like the song.  But after watching it back just now, and I actually cried like really crying and I lied down on the cold floor of my room then I was thinking why would I watch something that is so frustrating, you know the boy had a hard time in the MV, even the dog betrayed him and when he thought that owh I can smile now because there's a dog but the dog barked at you and he lost it and he barked at it instead.  Like he is so frustrated, he lost his bags, and got beaten by an adult.  

Then, I sat up straight and I decided to read the comments and I saw this:

Not sure if I can show the names but this is not a bad thing and
I think it is okay to just leave the names here because they made a good comments anyway



and I was like woa I never thought it this way about the mv and the song.  I never learned the lyric anyway and I didn't watch any interviews on AKMU about their songs (I probably gonna do it after this)  And it hits me, it hits me real good and how I can totally relate this to my life right now and how it is so true.
So basically I am an adult now even though I don't feel like it and I feel so not fit in among the adults at my workplace since I'm working and I pay my own bills and actually have bills and drive my own car and so I guess that's adult enough to be called as adult.  I am not ready and at times I even feel like wanting to become friends with my teenage students because I just miss what they have with their friends and I want that back.

I officially a government school teacher for a year, yesterday was the anniversary of me and my fellow friends.  A day or two before that. I had a conflict with a colleague of mine and she's such a bitch and I hate her now and everything she does bother me a lot like please don't even talk to me as if there's nothing happened.  I never felt being hated like this before.  It sucks since you're alone there and I lost my utmost trust on them.  I really am.  I thought they were perfect but then this happened and I felt so out of place and how my mornings are ruined because of that critics she gave me and also every time I look at her.  What an asshole she is.

Then I remember everything that ever happened to me since I first got posted there and begin my life as a working adult.  That was the critical point where I really feel like ohh this is it, this is adulthood.  I don't even got excited when I got my first paycheck (not really a check) and the first time I saw the boss in that place, it was already bad enough, like she didn't seem to be welcoming me and all I needed that time was just comforting words, like bitch this is hard enough why make it hard on me and can't you even smile at me?

And can't you guys tell that I don't want this job?
I don't mind
and clearly
I made a mistake.
So don't go around and assume that I have nothing else if I don't have this job.
Can't you see this is complicated
really bitch?
YOU ARE AN ADULT
YOU GUYS ARE ALL ADULTS
and clearly you were once like me too
or was it easy for you?
and can you guys like stop asking me whether I have a boyfriend and some even asking me when will I get married?
Like does that really bother you? Mind your own business, bitches.

you guys treated me like I have a lot to give.
you treated me like I know everything.
You expect so much from me.
Can't you see I'm just a newbie adult?
I am sorry if I don't act like one because I never been an adult before and there's no fcking manual on that.
I'd call myself a late bloomer.
I know myself better than any of you.
I do.
Lucky for you guys if adulthood comes so naturally to you,
and read me thoroughly first instead of bombing me with your assumptions just because you are butt-hurting of my existence.

Currently my friends are having hard times, my best friend is sick and I feel helpless that I am not there with her and I feel so bad about it.  I sent comforting words that I really hope to comfort her but I know my words are nothing to her illness but I want you to know that I cried too but I have to be strong for you.
And my housemate, she suddenly shut herself from her friends, only negative status updates on fb and I don't even know why.  But the status was about work and her colleagues.  I don't even know what I am supposed to do and I'm scared.
I have a friend that said that she's depressed.  That she might have depression.  I know it's a lot more to that term, but if that what she feels then, that's enough.  She had enough, she's tired, she's sad and she's not happy.  She was so fine but then it just happened.  I understand that, and I feel restless about it.


AND YEAH ADULTS ARE COLD
give us a break you asshole morons
you guys are not helping anything
I never wanted to be like you guys anyway
but it just happen.
we just grow old.
You guys give many bad examples and expect me to accept them?
I feel you, AKMU.
Our first time as an adult facing other adults and it sucks.

Ya you guys have it hard too, but don't let it on us
vent on your kids instead.
They're gonna be like me like my friends someday
they'll be adults too and the way I act will be theirs too.
so stop complaining about your marriage and rely on us the not married ones.
What if I don't get married at all?
(again with the assumptions I'll get married one day, that bitch even said how can I "branak pinak kalu tu pun xtaw"
HEY BITCH
first, you eavesdroppin?? and think that's okay for you to make an opinion right there right then when I was actually not talking to you, bitch? and did I ask for your opinion, bitch?
and secondly, I was only asking silly things about my chocolate spread, I was just trying to be a goodie2 girl to my desk neighbor person, is that really a bother that I want to be manja2??  If you were joking, you're not funny.
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