Photography: Brushing up

Still and always be learning

You know this is Ikea

Small fraction from Hat Yai Trip :

Brighter tones

Some darker shots

 

Am I doing well?

Birthday: You Are Older

Made by my sister using a Doodle Face app

Brother,

we don't talk a lot

I think we are similar

only that you are older

Also, special to my two cousins who have close birthdays, in the same week:

Cousins,

you are awesome

glad that our moms are sisters

that makes us alike

to the 25th year old boy, I'll dedicate the song Palette by IU

and for the girl who's turning 24, 

do check out music album by HYUKOH titled 24: How to Find True Love and Happiness 

(I picked it because it's 24 and I found this band very recently)

Journal: New Home

We spent our first night here last night in our new home!

I wish I have my close friends here helping around, not that I really need the help but watching movies where their friends are there with them, unload and unpack things up, this is just a perfect picture.  But anyway I never told them I'm actually moving houses again.  The last time I told them, some of them were upset and I was sorry but I have my own reasons.  I'm sorry guys.  I appreciate it.

Anyway the house decoration and furniture arrangement are not yet finished and we need another two or three more trips to finally clear the old house out from the stuff.  OMG there's a lot of stuff, really a lot. phew.  I wish I work here so I can help everyday, every evening and every night. TT

Today, we got rid of many things including some shoes, great shoes of mine.  I always love high heels but I can never really wear them anywhere (mostly on wedding kenduri).  I have problems with my feet too TT

Oh ya, a reminder for me of Jason 

Chat: screencaps

 

 

Relief

• Boy A:Nape eh pmpuan takut lipas? Cikgu takut lipas x?
• Me:Sy x takut, sy geli sebab sy pernah terpijak lipas
• Boy B:Misti bau
• Boy A:Kalu jumpe lipas cikgu eeeeeee ke?
• Me:Sy xdekla eeeee tu sy mcm ehhh
• Boy B:Oh cikgu ehh ,sy ohhhh
• All:LOL

Sweet Jewels

I saw my friend’s status on FB regarding her students.  She is already in the stage of my-students-are-my precious jewels.  She is so sweet.  Not sure if that is quickly escalated but at some point, I think most of us are in that stage already.  One of them might be me.
And guys, I am sorry for any harsh words I blurted out (If there any)..it was never meant to be said to you guys (well maybe for some of you)..

Badminton

Since my housemate mentioned about borrowing the badminton rackets and since I asked the boys myself (most of the students I know are happened to be my neighbours! One of them is even from my class), whenever they meet me in the school compound, they asked whether I will be playing.  Haha!  I kept on reminding them that I will not be playing.  They insisted, tho.  Now I am sleepy and the others are out for dinner and I hope they manage to get here so they can play with the boys.  Don’t want to lose their hope.  They even asked me again just now ==.

Chair

Being a teacher is rewarding at some points, most of it.  Love the feeling, Masha Allah~ :D.  At school just now, a boy offered me a chair when he saw me entered the room.  And I was looking for a chair the 1st time I got there, others were busy.
Thanks.
:D

 

 

Form 4?

• Boys hitting each other, teasing.
• Me:Laa, ingatkan form 1 je mcm ni..
• Boy A:*flexing his arm* sy mcm form 4 x, cikgu?
• Me:*sengeh*

A day in school part 2

#np Bangels- Eternal Flame
The day before yesterday (・｀(ｪ)・) (if not mistaken) after had my early lunch with my friends and while walking heading to the staffroom, a pendidikan khas boy was tying his shoes and when he saw me, he instantly greet me with my name!  Even though I had my name tag on me it still feels awesome!  It was cute!
“Assalamualaikum, cikgu H******”
It was sweet.  Thanks, kid, you just made my day!
Seeing that, my friends said the kid asked about me before, whether I will be teaching him.  He described me as the girl teacher with the spectacles.
Aww.

 

Aishh..

“Nmpk sluar cikgu..”
“Kain cikgu senteng..”
ughhh.  Next time the inner pants cannot be together with this kurung =_=
gurhh

 

A day in school..

As the school & students are getting fine and warmer, I have problems with my housemates =_=,  I hate when things happened like this.  But I let it be for now.  Just now, I had to relief one class and it was not my own but I do know them.  My practicum mate have been teaching them and the students know me as well.  They greet me whenever we met.  The boys are recognizable as they are more active in class and yeah I think they perform better than the girls O.O.  *thumb up*.
Oh yeah when I went in the class, they were busy eating but I just hurried them up as the recess was a short. Then, they were quite hard to stay still, man.  Even the teacher class next to us was saying something to sshh them.  Ugh I felt helpless with this, she must have thought I cannot control my class but my students were just actively in discussion. A few of them asked me to conduct games but some refused.
After a while, I wrote on the board the spaces.  I wanted to play Hangman on Idioms.  Only three idioms were managed to be done and a girl asked me to stop(-_- how dare you?!) and their score were…A=☆☆☆ B=☆☆ C=☆ .
Before that, they asked me to take off my glasses (-__-“).  This is weird!  But I won! I won’t take my glasses just because I was asked to..It feels weird but with them I did feel a little funny and delighted.  They were curious how I would look like.  It is something. :D. Still. Weird. And yeah today, I wore inner pants and I regretted wearing it because my skirt would stick with the pants and caused my skirt to look weird and I hate it.  One boy noticed that and said "woaa mcm org puteh cikgu pakai sluar and skirt..”  Luckily I managed to cover by saying “kain cikgu ada mslh sket..” uhh.
After the class ended, they have to go somewhere else and so a boy asked to walk with him.  I just said ok.  I was walking while looking for my schedule and the boys were left behind…then they said why I left them!.Then the two boys walk behind me.  Haiyaa!  This is funny and I would cherish this. :D
to be continued…
(i have class to relief)
#np AKMU-Kirina

Dilemma

“When I grow up to fishing because it is my hobby.”
(；￣Д￣) (；￣Д￣）
My student wrote that and he is not the only one…== Most of them are worse and some can’t even recite the ABC!  What is this??  Why is he/them in that class?  Oh my.  No wonder nobody pass up their work!  They can’t even write a thing.  Only two or three peoples are able to make correct sentences and I believe those are just good luck.
This is where we teachers have dilemmas.  We have to follow the syllabus but for this case I want and I have to start over.  I don’t care.  So I think I found my question for my action research.
Using the syllabus and the themes and whatever they are, I’ll make them easy as possible since they are beginners and weak.  Start with what is sentence then ==.  They have to start over.
Then I face this.  How to collect the marks for the pbs stuff?  Does that mean I have to come up with my own questions after I bought those books??  Haiyaa..
*changing lesson plans*
(no wonder I was so tired to print out the lp last night, so Im going to pretend that I never came up with the listening lp & make a new one on today’s activities).(;¬_¬)
I hope you guys participate more and have the effort more after this >,<
what if they never going to get it ever?? they are just plain lazy T_T
and yeah how on earth they’ll write on literature paper??
#np AKMU- Play album ♫

 

 

don’t be too worried ok. U r a great person with great personalities. I x know wut shits u hav to go through everyday but I want u to be strong! Love u<3

—

SL

 

 

Disappointed

They haven’t send their homework…not even a person.  I’m slapping them hard across the face in my head right now, especially those innocent looking girls.  What are you guys thinking?  U can’t even…!  OHHH!  This demotivate me a lot!  I feel restless with this.

 

staripoh.com

Pusat Perkembangan Kurikulum

Get the HSP here~ So I got my timetable today but still under the original teacher’s name.  Technically I’m just replacing her place as she is on maternity leave like for 3 months.
I had one relief class today & it was a form 1 class and they were many kind of behaviour especially the boys.  Asked unimportant questions & stuffs.  Luckily the girls are just nice.  I hope they will continue to be like this.
And to my surprise I will teach them for this practice. 

 

 

Journal: Aunthood

A conversation I had with a friend of mine through texting triggered me to make this post.  We were kinda talking about siblings stuff and all and then, I began to wonder whether having younger siblings is the same as having nieces or nephews, because she claimed so and that I think otherwise, I disagree to her statement.  And I asked another friend of mine whether a person who is the youngest in which they do not have any baby/younger/little siblings after them know how it feels like to have one.  Can they relate this kind of feelings and stuff.  This friend said it depends on situations or events but she strongly feel that the youngest will never know how it feels like to be a big sister or brother, I myself cannot understand thoroughly how it feels like to be a big brother, or to be the oldest one.  I'm the middle child.  I have two older siblings and two younger ones.  So I might understand how it feels like to be the younger one and also to be older one.  I can be both.  But being an older sister makes me a better younger sister to my two older siblings.  I know exactly how to treat them and I know exactly how to break their hearts.  This sounds so cheesy but yeah they've broke my hearts thousand times a day, so called brat-annoying-insensitive siblings. but that's what siblings do right? hahah, but I'm pretty sure they don't feel so hurtful like I always did...I'm the poyo girl who takes everything so seriously. 

Anyway this is supposed to be how entering aunthood changes my life.  It's been almost ten months (she was nine months when I started to write this) since I entered this aunthood life, eventho I don't see my little niece face to face as often as I want, it does not change the fact that I am an aunt.

This is a total life changing and to be honest I'm not good around kids, I naturally don't like kids, I don't hate them but I am not fond of them at any cause.  If you see how frequent I change my FB cover photos of kids or todds, this is only because they are models and they are super beautiful and I envied them and they make a good cover photo, obviously! (And yeah cuz my bro wont allow me to upload female without covering especially, so no Rihanna eventho my fingers itch to upload Riri's photos).  I'll be the one who is okay to no be holding or having babies or kids in my arms or around me.  I have this feeling that kids despise me too, and I see them as adults too, I speak to them like one, I don't go babbling or do the baby talk or anything.  It sounds cruel right, Idk, but it is me, I don't feel comfortable around them cuz I feel they're not comfortable around me and the fact that it feels awkward for not behaving or responding like any other people around me.  I don't want people to know that, especially the babies' parents,, ya because maybe they would be thinking "OMG she's bad, I can't hand over my kid to her" .. that fears me a lot.. I know I'm like that but do not point it out.

But I was there, the day she was born and made me an official aunt.  I remembered not getting the feeling yet. I didn't know how to feel, what to feel, what to say and stuff.  My sister-in-law had to get Cesarean because of complications and all.  It was my first time seeing people having babies, I mean being in the hospital and pay a visit to them but not exactly witnessing the birth, I only watch those on You tube, pretty explicit.  and another best part of this journey was that my childhood, best friend was there! Both of us didnt know we were under the same roof, she was on her posting practical stuff, a medical student she is and I was happen to give a text to her saying I am in Temerloh and all and she said ohh which hospital,,and then we hang out,, she got to see my niece. and I'm glad even though we rarely in touch but she is there on my big days & all. Thanks. I miss you.

I was filming my brother and he was being himself but I know he was nervous and scared but he remained calm as usual.  And then my sis-in-law was being pushed and she was smiling and her baby was on her covered legs.  She was so so small.

And it was the next day that we got to see both mommy and baby.  Omma actually offered me to hold and I was honored to be told that but I declined as she was so small.  And the first thing I fell in love on her was her lips! I super love her small lips and the way she puckers them! That, is a clear image in head.  Ya i love her lips.

As an aunt, I noticed myself to be a bit tolerate with small kids now, I started to feel attracted to my cousins' beautiful children, and they like me and I feel good bout myself when they enjoy my company and I was like a child myself sometimes.  I even got the chance to babysit 3yo and 6yo other cousins, which are hectic and new experience to me.  I got to bathe them, feed them, change the diapers and also got in fights a lot!  The small one often got things he touches to be broken into pieces and claims everything as his and all. *sorry for grammar mistakes ==' *

I can be her friend, she can rely on me to be cuddlish, I will be the strict aunt oh I know I will XD, I'll buy her stuffs, I'll put on fancy clothes and boots, get her to love what I love, everything and knowing there's a child (I want more, I hope my other sibs get married fast XD) to love and be loved is a huge thing and I hope I don't messed up and all.  and yeah for me siblings are not the same as having niece or nephews.  They're have connection but in different ways. as for me, me and siblings, we don't hug,,as much as I want it to be happened, it just does not work in my place, I enjoy good and cute and close relationship between siblings (reasons to love Lucky Smith and his sisters, and Queen is getting married) but it just cant happen in mine,,idk but we are in a good term believe me, But with niece,nephews, I can be the most huggable person haha what a word.  I'll be preparing milk or baby food n all. idk.

and I also think that having one at this age and not when I was way much younger is a thing too.  It brings different kind of feeling I guess,  Different environment and all, or having such a close age gap with your niece and nephews does makes you different in how you view these relationship.

"On this day, I would like to wish her

Happy 10th month, Zaraa!"