Photography: Self Portraits

from a 30 day challenge with a friend, just a fun one, nothing serious.

day 1 self portrait

day 21 faceless self portrait

day 29 black and white (but conventional self portrait)

day 30 self portrait

Movie: Venom

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I love this

Rite after finished watching the movie I was about to write away my thoughts but then I had to pee and then I had to take a bath.  Lots of things went on my mind.  Bro offered to watch this last night but it was past midnight so ya.  Then today he said he had watched it and I kinda pissed like what can't you wait?  

It started of quite slow with Eddie and his love life with Annie (I was, is this the Marilyn Monroe actress and also reminds me of Potts, the hairstyle and suit).  Also, I'm not a fan when there's a romance in action movies.  I was even texting my friend when this movie was playing.

I like when Eddie thinks that he Venom should have let Annie come along for the battle.  In normal movies, the main/heroes always ask the others to stay put and to stay safe by being far away from them.  I like how Eddie actually wants her to join or something and also I love the fact that Annie said she can fight ugly and the fact that she does not require a lot of explanation and understands right away of what's going on with him.  She only freaked out once.  That scene is my most favorite scene 

hahaha, when he says he's inside of me. *insert pervert face* his voice of his, the about-to-cry voice is cute too and his British is showing.

and that part when Annie is trying to talk to Venom and Dan (her doctor boyfriend) is super confused. 

The entire movie he was looking like a shit just like what Mrs. Chen said haha he does!  I was like can you change the sweater and get a shower or wipe the sticky sweat off of your face?  but he's cute being that vulnerable so I forgive him for now,  HAHA.  Tom is a petite guy and I know it!  I always love him but I did not that eager to watch him and I think the only time I've seen him was in Inception (I think, I might seen him elsewhere) and I decided I want to love him.  All this time I thought he was this huge tall guy all beefed up and all but in this one I saw him like a cute guy and his character Eddie Brock I guess is supposed to be this less tough guy and all and then somewhere it came to me, somewhere in my head that he is a small guy (I mean to be compared with other celebs and western guys)  I think I've seen him with other actors and then that was when I knew oh he's not like other like all the Chris, and then I googled his height and I was pleased that I was right! (Ape ak merepek ni)

This movie is funny when I initially thought it was not supposed to be funny.  This movie is actually super cute and this thing, parasite (Venow super pissed when being called that) can actually talk and he communicates and slowly making friends with his host.  At first he threatens Eddie.  Towards the end he comes to like Eddie and also our planet Earth.  It has this cute friendship going on and it's an alien host thingy kind of story.  My first impression when I saw the trailer a lot long time ago, I never knw about Venom before, not in comics, or animations before, like zero knowledge about this guy.  But I never it was a alien thing I I did wonder what's up with him, is he a villain or something and it eats people.

Okay, that is a lot on fangirling on Eddie/Tom and Venom.

I think Eddie is strong vessel/host for Venom cause he's been holding in his fear and anger.  Kinda like he can withstand his anger so he's strong.  For example he wants to be mad at his neighbour (or he's basically just scared but I don't blame him for that, sometimes we are brave and sometimes we just don't want to risk shit but most of it I guess we're thinking is this even worth, don't at the end I'll hurt myself).  I hate that the bad guy is a strong host too.

"Apparently I have a parasite"

no he's not a coward (we're act the same if we were put in that situation)

This scene is nice too like they're one already, he allows it

"do you know this is dead??" not dialogue for this frame

Like a little boy awww

No control of his body

He's been doing this pose whenever he's mad LOL

This is when we know Eddie has grown attached to Venom, he reaches out

But really his acting is superb, he was really controlled by something and it's not easy task right

Photography: Blackout II

of mirror and lit candle

really really dark

Photography: Blackout

lit candle in a small jar

 

Bawah 100: Pemburu #4

Mata Adam memandang tajam ke arah Hisyam.  Hisyam kelihatan lemah dan memeluk tubuh, mengecilkan dirinya.

Kemarahan terserlah di wajah, sesekali matanya terpejam sambil terkumat-kamit sesuatu.  Angin kuat memekakkan alam.

“Syam!” Aku memekik dan mereka berpaling kearah aku. 

Muka Hisyam bertukar pucat sebaik sahaja mata kami bertemu.  Aku berdiri perlahan-lahan menahan diri dari diterbangkan ribut gila.

“Mikael, please!” Adam memandang aku.

“Adam dah bersetuju,” mata milik Adam kembali memandang Hisyam. 

Tiba-tiba Hisyam menyeringai seram. 

“NO NO, Syam?!” mataku terbeliak, aku tak keruan.

Tiba-tiba juga Hisyam lemah, tersenyum.

“It’s okay, Dani! Aku dah dapat dia.” 

Lantas menjatuhkan dirinya ke dalam lubang neraka.

    

    

     

ps: cite ni bukan idea asal ak,,cter ni kalu sape prasan adalah American tv shows, Supernatural.  Aku nk praktis tulis dlm BM tp yg ni yg kuar, ak xleh come up ngan idea sndiri lagi, so for the mean time ak gne ni dlu.

Writing 100 words exact or below is really hard when I suddenly have all the words I wanted to describe the moments..guhhhh.. so this is not my own story, but the words are mine.  I want to use something to jump start me in writing in my native language, and this happened.  This isn't my first.  I've written something that touches me when watching Supernatural, and it came to me naturally when I lay my hands on this keyboard to write.  I never written any angsty, action or action fantasy or thriller before both in English and BM, but I should try someday.

Bawah 100: Pemburu #3

Aku tercungap, berselang selikan dengan nafas yang ditarik dalam.  Perasaan yang entah tidak bernama, bercampur baur.  Air mata yang mula bertakung aku kesat dengan lengan baju aku yang kasar seperti denim. 

Aku kebalkan diri.  Luka-luka dalam dan lebam-lebam biru bertukar kebas.  Hanya perit di dalam hati yang terasa.

Apabila langkah semakin kecil aku berhenti dan bersembunyi di sebalik bangkai kereta buruk.  Aku mengintai dan aku nampak Adam.  Tapi dia bukan lagi Adam.  Aku nampak belakang Hisyam.  Dada aku ketat. 

Angin semakin kuat, seperti ribut, menerbangkan apa-apa yang menghalang dan dihumbankan ke dalam lubang berapi marak di tengah-tengah Adam dan Hisyam.

Bawah 100: Menanda

      Aku tersedar.  Walau di luar kedengaran hujan turun dan sesekali terdengar guruh perlahan, aku tahu hari dah lewat.  Hati ini sayu mengenang nasib sendiri.  Tangan aku meraba mencari telefon pintar yang aku yakin sudah beralih tempat.

          Apabila telefon di tangan aku tengok jam.  Bateri juga sudah berkurangan.  Wayar pengecas aku capai dan segera aku sambungankan dengan telefon ini.  Hanya cahaya kecil yang malap muncul.  

          Aku bangkit dari tilam yang tidak bercadar hanya selimut tebal aku jadikan alas.  Aku duduk di kerusi dan termenung lama sebelum pen merah aku sepit di celahan jari dan belek halaman buku.  Hati ini terasa sakit.

Photography: Annoy

Movie: Brother of The Year

Just finished watching this movie.  It all started when I asked Mumu what she was doing and she said movie and drama marathon and then the mentioning of this movie.  I was out looking for movies anyway so it was an instant decision to watch and I've seen the trailer (I guess was it heard somewhere).

I almost ugly cried towards the ending.  The intro and the mid were hilarious especially the part where the two families meet to discuss on their marriage.  Nickhun was here and wow he looks even cuter here and he can act, he seems natural and I envied the couple, why they have to be so beautiful and perfect.  Love the Japanese talking.  They sound natural to my non Japanese tongue tho.  I envied Nickhun tho, gah.  It was and funny when Mumu asked whether I know the movie and at first I was clueless but then I remembered one with kpop guy in it and she said woaa no wonder he looks so familiar (both of us forgot his name but we knw he's one of 2PM HAHAH)

I think the movie is a bit misleading with the title, but then it shows how lame is he, the brother.  I was hoping that at the end they might be showing some scenes where he is actually a good big brother.  All this while he's indeed the lame one, the bad one, the lazy one, the black sheep I guess and she is on the other hand is super opposite and mostly takes care of pretty much everything.

"I don't hate her, I just hate myself when I'm with her"

I also thought this movie would be about more on the brother's protest on the boyfriends of his sister, like not a straight away an easy up until marriage to this Moji guy.

I love this movie anyway.  Sweet relationship and rivalry between siblings.  How about times that to 4 but minus the sweet.  But I guess my own is similar to these duo.  Fights all the way.

Sims: Geneology so far!

I've been playing this challenge, 

to play till there are 26 generation, 

alphabecy and generation challenge

CREECH FAMILY

(Patriarchy Generation) 

Alfred

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Billy Elliot

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Caliph Matias

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Dominic

/

Eday

/

Fergus

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Gamora - Gale - Giselle

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Hawthorne - Hamish  (Ivy - Isambard)- Hunter

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Ingrid - Ismeralda - Isadora - Isaiah - Ian Jake - Igor Clyde

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Jakobe - Juaneeta - Jacquenetta - Jameelah - Jewelree - Jeremiah

/

Kalford
/
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Ahh it's a very long way process, I've been playing for ages and been concentrating for this challenge and on several (a few) sims to achieve higher level of their aspirations: like Isadora Creech on her aspiration to have serial romances (she even turns to vampire just to achieve the milestone)

Poem: Tissue in Trash

Woke to Etam wanted to pee

and then she wanted to poop

when done she wanted to flee

and this toilet got no scoop

I updated this on my status then my friend saw it and responded how the words rhymed, the words that I posted was : Woke to Etam wanted to pee and poop and this toilet got no scoop.  HAHA so I had to write about it.  Thanks! 

Guess what I did with the shit?  Hint: the title of this poem

Bawah 100: Pemburu #2

Kepingan memo kuning ini aku letak kembali di atas meja.  Puas aku cuba memahami kod-kod rahsia ini tetapi semakin lama aku tenung semakin fikiran aku entah kemana-mana.  

Aku gerakkan jemariku, mengurut dahi.

“Eh Dani, kau tak tidur ke semalam?” tanya Sham.  

Aku hanya diam, tidak berminat.  

Sambil menarik kerusi, Sham mendengus.  Sham memandang abangnya yang kini berpura-pura sibuk.

“Dani, kalau kau masih marah pasal tu, aku minta maaf tapi there’s no taking back.”

“Sham, listen, aku just fikir yang kau akan buat benda sama kat aku kalau kau kat tempat aku.”

“Nope, Dani.”

Remuk hati seorang abang.

Ps: eh why do I messed up in the POV?? I cant make up my mind, What should I do??

Bawah 100: Pemburu

Hisyam, dia adik aku.  Satu-satunya yang aku ada sekarang.  

Aku masih ingat malam itu.  Bapak tiba-tiba datang menjemput aku pulang setelah dua bulan aku di sana.  

Kenapa?

Aku dah senang kat sana.  Pak Hasan sangat memahami dan Judi… dia cinta pertama aku.  Aku mengintai dari dalam. Terlihat kereta bapak. Aku keberatan.  Kemudian aku nampak Hisyam dengan roket kertas kesayangannya. Aku tersenyum dalam kesayuan.  Aku tahu. Aku harus pulang.

Semalam dia terlantar.  Tenat, kata doktor. Tapi jauh-jauh aku tolak idea itu.  Jantung.

Aku memilih untuk kembali kepada saat tembakan maut itu dilepaskan.

 

Journal: Late Bloomer

I wanna dance in the dark 

(come on)

We gonna light up the night

(come on)

I hit Bluetooth button and 

the track played itself

but it's not from Spotify

Tonight, it was my first time 

driving back from school

the road was lit with 

not enough lamppost

my astigmatism eyes suffered

but they were better 

right now, on my way back

while eating my dinner

there were some chicken

but I poured only the lamb curry

on my rice and poppadoms too

I swiped open my screenlock

and hovered through status

'Late Bloomer' words appeared

These words always 

floating somewhere in my mind

I keep telling myself

that I am one of the late bloomers

Tonight Davis revealed his crush

after little pestering

I told him to be best of friends first

and this new girl friend of mine

we talked about boys and boy-band

like I was seventeen

just like her seventeen self

Of all these things in which

I never had with my own circle

I guess this is it for me

I am late because these are

made for me now I guess

it scares me that I might be

overly comfortable

There you go~

Getting so overly comfortable

Baby

Does it ever crossed your mind?

The lyric excerpt are from:

Dancing in The Dark by Rihanna

Fools by Madison Beer

my thoughts

ps: I better read that Late Bloomer ff too :P

Photography: Tests

Original

What I always go for

A girl with helmet

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I want to delete these from my phone so here they are, just some heavily 

badly edited photos from an event at my workplace 

Chapbook: Music Albums

I made a photobook not long ago, these are just the proof version made for us to keep by the company hence the low quality.  It is a 6x6 with 40 pages photobook.  I named it Perzine: My Prescription with Mac DeMarco collage (not made by me, credit to owner) as the cover.